My February piece for the Bead Journal is my view of love. To me, love isn't rainbows and roses and glitter and sparkles, it's darker and more complex than that. The skull represents my view of self, I am afraid of death and mortality seems very fragile. The piece is also slightly unbalanced, which again reflects me, the way my mind refuses to play ball and allow me to be a sane and regular individual! For me, love hurts. Love is something that you give your all to, and something that you have to earn. It is about finding the darkness inside yourself and allowing yourself to feel it is okay to share that darkness with another human being. The three large spikes in this piece represent three major relationships in my life, the three smaller spikes are my three wonderful sons, who accept their often weird and kind of eccentric mother without question. I have a light and girly side, but she doesn't come out to play very often, so it is more important for me that those whom I choose to share my love with are able to accept me as I am, because even if I wanted to change, I cannot. This is me.